the gradual act of getting over your hangups
i don't see a lot of movies. ironic since i've been building movie websites for the past 10 years.
there's something about seeing a movie by myself that just makes me uncomfortable. it all has to do with me and i freely own up to the irrational collection of neuroses that prevent me from stepping into a movie theater solo: my discomfort at being alone in a dark room surrounded by strangers, my embarrassment over my oftentimes explosively big laugh, the feeling i get that it puts a microscope on how goddamn single i am... i could go on and on.
i've traveled to remote corners of the world by myself. i have no problem eating a meal in a crowded restaurant by myself. i love sitting by myself and watching people pass by.
and for some reason i can't step into a movie theater alone.
but today i went and saw a movie... by myself.
... and it wasn't all that bad.
there's something about seeing a movie by myself that just makes me uncomfortable. it all has to do with me and i freely own up to the irrational collection of neuroses that prevent me from stepping into a movie theater solo: my discomfort at being alone in a dark room surrounded by strangers, my embarrassment over my oftentimes explosively big laugh, the feeling i get that it puts a microscope on how goddamn single i am... i could go on and on.
i've traveled to remote corners of the world by myself. i have no problem eating a meal in a crowded restaurant by myself. i love sitting by myself and watching people pass by.
and for some reason i can't step into a movie theater alone.
but today i went and saw a movie... by myself.
... and it wasn't all that bad.