no holds barred

okay...

last year sucked sucked some seriously sweaty donkey nuts. like, 4rlz. 2009 can kiss my ass. repeatedly.

personally, my life was a complete disaster - one familiar pattern after another.

financially, my life/career took a serious crap (though, similar for many others).

spiritually, though not completely lost in the moors, the year was really a series of mis-starts.

soul-ly, i had to abandon an excursion that i'd been planning (apparently not very realistically) for 2 years.

physically, i manifested a whole bunch of other shit for myself that was a direct reflection of the aforementioned crappo that was happening in my life.

and on top of it, i turned 40. which in and of itself is no big deal, really. but, when combined with all the other shit, made me take a step back and go, "hold on a second... what the eff?!"

(fastforward)

and not a whole hell of lot is different.

well maybe my wine collection. all i have left after the '09 "cheaper stuff" drinking extravaganza is a  cabinet full of epic wine.

and well maybe i'm more realistically looking at how people act as opposed to what they say.

and well maybe work is kinda looking up and the financial picture, though not entirely rosy, isn't as bleak and hopeless as it was last year.

aaaaaaand well maybe i'll get a chance to recharge my soul in a serious way this year by doing some volunteer work half way around the globe and by playing and seeing more live music.

and, you know... i'm kinda feeling stronger and healthier now.

...

hey maybe being 40-ish isn't that bad after all.