the year i got unstuck
i know it's been a while since my last post - work and phineas keeping me busy - but i've been trying to wrap my head around what happened last year. and let's be honest, it's not like a whole lot of people are hanging on my every word here. this is for me primarily and if anyone happens to stumble upon this thing and get anything out of what i type.... all the better i suppose.
anyhow, i'm not sure i have many deeply reflective thoughts about '07. i mean, it was a big year. and that bigness has all been in the form of forward movement. sometimes the decisions that had to be made in order to ensure that forward movement were heartbreaking but in the end the result more than justifies everything, i think. it's been a year of new beginnings, a year of hard work, a year of coming to grips with and - if not fully, at least mostly - embracing the solitude i find myself in, a year of trying new things, a year of amazing travel adventures... a year of getting unstuck.
last year i made a resolution to be lighter - to not necessarily gloss over the big decisions and events in my life but maybe to accept them into my life with more compassion and humor and not be burdened by them as is my usual m.o. my report card... i think i did pretty well. truth be told, i'm more at peace now than i was a year ago. more at peace than i have been in a while, actually. the last vestiges of my life as a husband and the man i used to be are gone now and without those decisions weighing on me anymore i can finally sprint headlong into my future. so i guess it feels easier to have a lighter outlook on life.
as for new resolutions... continued forward movement would be a good one. maybe continued lightness. maybe reinforcing the peace that i seem to be enjoying now.
... one day at a time.
anyhow, i'm not sure i have many deeply reflective thoughts about '07. i mean, it was a big year. and that bigness has all been in the form of forward movement. sometimes the decisions that had to be made in order to ensure that forward movement were heartbreaking but in the end the result more than justifies everything, i think. it's been a year of new beginnings, a year of hard work, a year of coming to grips with and - if not fully, at least mostly - embracing the solitude i find myself in, a year of trying new things, a year of amazing travel adventures... a year of getting unstuck.
last year i made a resolution to be lighter - to not necessarily gloss over the big decisions and events in my life but maybe to accept them into my life with more compassion and humor and not be burdened by them as is my usual m.o. my report card... i think i did pretty well. truth be told, i'm more at peace now than i was a year ago. more at peace than i have been in a while, actually. the last vestiges of my life as a husband and the man i used to be are gone now and without those decisions weighing on me anymore i can finally sprint headlong into my future. so i guess it feels easier to have a lighter outlook on life.
as for new resolutions... continued forward movement would be a good one. maybe continued lightness. maybe reinforcing the peace that i seem to be enjoying now.
... one day at a time.
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