time to let go of the big decisions...
i'm mexico-bound people! 5 days of nothing but diving, rum, sun and hopefully not too much influence from hurricane dean. hoping... praying... it's been a crazy couple of weeks - hell it's been a crazy past few months - and boy do i need this break.
i finally put to bed that medical air purification site i've been working on forever. what a pain in the ass that project was. mid way through, the client got rid of their internet savvy marketing guy and replaced him with 2 completely green summer interns from usc. which effed everything up. lesson learned, i guess. but man what a clusterfuck that site turned out to be.
i also pretty much put to bed a site for a local fashion designer. just a few more tweaks til i can push that one live. hopefully when i return from mexico i can put that one to bed as well. links forthcoming...
all of this furious work that had to happen before i leave the country.
then a couple weeks ago i decide to give my ex full custody of my two beautiful dogs. what a heartbreaking decision. but it needed to happen and as much as i miss them i know they'll be better off for it. and i'll be better able to completely move forward with my life.
and THEN not 24 hrs after i give up the dogs i get a call from my lawyer telling me that as of 3 days prior i was officially a free man. michael renninger - divorcé. trippy. like i knew some finality was occurring that weekend and i decided to act on it and sever all ties by giving up the dogs. no coincidences.
AND THEN - not 4 days after that - i found a house that i just yesterday submitted an offer on.
all of this change... moving me forward into a new life. as uncomfortable as it may be. whether i like it or not. no time to think... just react. make a decision and get on with it. the old life becoming now just part of my past. indelibly leaving its impression on me but hopefully not binding me to it. i guess that's my choice though. to take the lessons of my past and integrating them into who i am now without allowing myself to be a slave to my past.
so much change.
my head spins.
i finally put to bed that medical air purification site i've been working on forever. what a pain in the ass that project was. mid way through, the client got rid of their internet savvy marketing guy and replaced him with 2 completely green summer interns from usc. which effed everything up. lesson learned, i guess. but man what a clusterfuck that site turned out to be.
i also pretty much put to bed a site for a local fashion designer. just a few more tweaks til i can push that one live. hopefully when i return from mexico i can put that one to bed as well. links forthcoming...
all of this furious work that had to happen before i leave the country.
then a couple weeks ago i decide to give my ex full custody of my two beautiful dogs. what a heartbreaking decision. but it needed to happen and as much as i miss them i know they'll be better off for it. and i'll be better able to completely move forward with my life.
and THEN not 24 hrs after i give up the dogs i get a call from my lawyer telling me that as of 3 days prior i was officially a free man. michael renninger - divorcé. trippy. like i knew some finality was occurring that weekend and i decided to act on it and sever all ties by giving up the dogs. no coincidences.
AND THEN - not 4 days after that - i found a house that i just yesterday submitted an offer on.
all of this change... moving me forward into a new life. as uncomfortable as it may be. whether i like it or not. no time to think... just react. make a decision and get on with it. the old life becoming now just part of my past. indelibly leaving its impression on me but hopefully not binding me to it. i guess that's my choice though. to take the lessons of my past and integrating them into who i am now without allowing myself to be a slave to my past.
so much change.
my head spins.
posted by michael | 10:56 PM
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